The rEaL WorLd oF ChOcoSaM

condolence to her.....

2008-11-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

i do miss u

may be this is the best way of relievement

i still remember the time we used to spend together

may be short but is enough

i realise how serious you are when the time you can't recognise who am i....

i feel sad

but nothing i can help

tears drop won't help much but just the way to release my feeling

if my day comes, all i want to keep with me is my memory but not money......

i wish to remember everyone whom i care & love in my life

but when that time i can't recognise you

don't be sad

i don't mean it

isn't what i have expected....

2007-09-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

no, can't imagine
place from worse to worst
i don't like it
make me feel pressure, exhausted, not worth!!!
at first, thought it would be fun, interesting, gain knowledge
no
it end up as a slave
same company
but not the same country
make such a big different
fed up mann.......
how would i survive
things doesn't go well as what i have expected
planning to QUIT
oh pls
not more than a week
haha......
first experience
shorter than my exam duration
what am i suppose to do??
not really SAM
why don't i keep on??
maybe miracle will happen....
do u think so???
maybe
ok
just have a try
maybe it will be better

i thought

2007-07-14T21:42:00.001+08:00

i thought i know them well

but i don't

i thought they treat others will be the same

but they aren't

i thought they treat me as friends

but they don't

i thought we use to have a simple minded when we met each other

but we weren't

i thought we truly treat each other as friend

but we don't

i thought mask were taken off when we chat nor hanging out

but it didn't taken off from them

i thought they were friends

but they were strangers

to me

they were strange to me

they weren't what i have thought

why?

2007-07-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

Life is in constant motion....

if u r not sure wat u wan & wat u need

that's wat my sis told me

she hate to be like that

but nothing can be change

it is a fact

maybe u wish that yr life will keep on going full with joy, happiness, excitement, luxurious, hot guys & etc.

but things doesn't go well in the way u wan.........

2007-06-30T03:02:00.000+08:00

cheating game......

endless cheating.....what's the purpose of it????

no longer purity......

without trust

without care

without commitment

but full of lie

just for SEX......

2007-05-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

commitment

the

beginning

lie

don't

ever

simply

make

commitment

2007-05-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

原来，

人死了不但财产带不走，就连回忆也带不走。。。。

没了回忆，

人也只剩下一副身躯。。。。

不记得小时候的事情，

不记得暗恋过谁，

不记得恨过谁，

甚至自己是谁。。。。。。。

可悲吗??????

那么活着是为了什么???

不公平

2007-05-12T13:18:00.000+08:00

对你而言
"他" 是王子。。。。。
对他人而言
"他" 是青蛙。。。。。
多么不公平啊!!!!!

相同的

对他人而言
"你" 是公主。。。。。。
对"他" 而言
"你" 是恐龙。。。。。。

哈哈

...pain....

2007-05-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

i like the feeling of pain

tat's wat my sis said

indulge in pain

i like the way it is......

is so so so so funny

i'm so insane,

i like the feel tat being gored

although i hate the time of waiting people

but i like the feel when i'm waiting for the sms, miss call, call or email

as my sis said

she like guessing game, so do i

kinda challenging......

guessing about the other side's thought

maybe it will end up as dissapointment, maybe not

who knows

as long as enjoy the process......

2007-05-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

no
i'm kinda stubborn.......why????
i do not mean so......is just my own opinion.......is just my point of view.....my experience!!!!
no one will know what i had experienced.......is kinda unexpected......
i can't convince myself to accept what they think and they agree with it or not....
i just follow what i think
as my friends said: "you are so straight"
in the way of communicate with friends.........
am i???
why i din realised??
i don think so...........i just expressed my feel, my opinion, & my view!!!!
i did it wrongly
sometimes i just don agree with things
no doubt is all about relationship
i just don trust it
although i don even experienced it before but just my thought
i don trust about those words like:
eternity
love
forever
so far so good
is kinda make me feel sucks
& is like so act
it wasn't a movie
we need not used those dramatic kind of dialogue
to me those words are useless......
maybe one day it will be useful to me
but not now.........
n always argue with friend about those problem......n they will just say to me
do u really wan to be alone for the entire whole life??
my answer was
i don mind if i hv enough money......
to me money is everything
WITHOUT MONEY, I'M NOTHING

2007-04-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

~kill this hype~

freakin cool mann.....

agree??

where to get it??

i was wondering.......damn desire bout it......cool, and maybe the necessary of a cool gal....

haha.....juz my own opinion

who can help??

wonder to cut a damn jap hairstyle......no longer girly look coz not suit me at all....

i like the origin of SAM.....

maybe.....tat's the real of me......

freakin cool...

no longer wana chase the trend of fashion

as long as i like.....i will wear it

is kinda boyish but i like....

~An aRgument~

2007-04-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

a cute baby end up as a devil....how pity??

doesn't mean to argue about that......

heard by her

asked

why i was here???

why don't i follow my heart??

why don i follow my dream???

why shall i put money on my 1st place???

why am i wasting my time???

answer.

is all because of money

this is a reality world

nothing much can be explain

MONEY is everything

wihtout money

U R NOTHING

agree????

this is why i had made my choice

asked again

life is meaningless to me.....

my life is just about money

i live because of money but not for myself

true...

that is wat we call a reality world

life is full of shit,

full of corruption,

polluted by sorts of fucking stuff,

like a baby

ended up as a devil

this is wat we call influences.........

看不见了

2007-04-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

cotton butt??

island??

weird

castle???

dog??? dinasour???

fire smoke???

cloud???? haha

小时候，

坐在爸爸的车上去兜风

抬头一望

看许多云。。。。但却不是普通的云!!

我们能看到的是那些有着不同样貌而且很可爱的云

好怀念哦

可是

我却看不到了

是为什么???

可能是我变得很复杂了吗??

还是为什么????

在一路上我怎么抬头望

怎么找也找不到。。。。。

当一个人变了或被复杂化时都会失去这些单纯的思想吗???

~a moment to remember~

2007-02-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

脑海里的橡皮檫

橡皮檫一点一点的把所有的回忆给檫掉了

毫不留情的。。。

也没有时间的限制

都忘了

朋友，

父母，

情人，

甚至。。。。

自己

可悲

当自己的爱人站在面前却呼叫着前男友的名字

可笑吗？？？

很悲的剧情

却是唯美的。。。。

hate u...

2007-02-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

i hate u......
i don mean to lost my scholar

but y???

u scolded me.....u din listen to my reason

u din.....

y????

i miss mum

i really miss mum..........

mum will listen to me............

she will know tat i don mean to lost my scholar.......

i miss u

mum

where r u????

mum

i regret............

u say i lost it becoz i'm lazy.............no....................

i hate u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

miss ya

2007-02-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

dear,

i'll miss u......

pls take care

keep in touch

maybe i'm not tat important

but i wish tat i'm one of yr best friend

no matter where u r, i'll always be there to support u

lend u my ear........

don worry

u hv the priority

haha!!

take care & all the best.......

i miss u

my deaR.....

vain & extravagant...

2007-01-28T01:33:00.000+08:00

vain

extravagant

not everyone can do so.....

pls don overrate yr ability

don pretend u r when u r not

it will end up in teased by ppl...

do u know tat....

休止符。

2007-01-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

思念 ﹐

是什麼 ???

是某人不論在多遠或什麼地方都會想着他吧 !!

想念着和他在一起的回憶 ﹐

不論是開心的 ﹐ 傷心的 ﹐ 都會在腦子裡想電影般的一篇又一篇的旋轉着

無時無刻的播放着同樣的一部戲。。。。

不會悶也不覺得無聊

默默的享受着

但 ﹐

思念也有得劃上休止符的一天

這需要很大的勇氣 ﹐

所需的時間也許會很長 ﹐ 也許會很短。。。

因人而異。。。

有的人一輩子也無法忘懷 ﹐ 有的人兩三天就可以了

然而從劃上休止符的那一刻開始

也代表着一切都結束了

不可能再回頭了。。。。

雖然會覺得可惜

但

總比傻傻的等好吧 !!!!

算啦。。。。。。。。。

都結束了

once in my life......haha

2007-01-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

erm..........my final test is coming soon!!!

lazy hippo hvn't start the fuck off revision........

ppl who know me well will be so surprise tat not really very SAM......haha!!!

coz HIPPOSAM is very hardworking oh.........i mean just during exam time......hehe!!!

but dono y??

no longer sam d........very lazy........keep on watching those hong kong series n movie.....but without study......................

aih........aim nothing 4 this semester d...................

sam,

y?????????

u r a hippo d...........n now not just hippo but a lazy 1!!!

useless

maybe i just wan to feel is once that during exam don feel like study

haha

quite good feel also

no pressure.........................

PrEtenCe

2007-01-09T15:11:00.000+08:00

i like jokes...
why??
erm......sometimes u won know tat is tat really a jokes or the truth of me!!!!
no doubt is really a good way to hide feeling.....
i always like to pretend
pretend nothing happen, pretend tat i doesn't really care bout things!!!
but sometimes i really lost myself......dono wat i really wan, n wat i really like
tired
tired to pretend anymore.........wish to express it out
therefore,
pretence is already part of my life........
it's all bout pretence.........
in front of everyone
even myself!!!!!!
just try to persuade myself keep on pretend.......
i really tired d.............
really........

unexpectation..............disappointment!!!!

2007-01-09T01:20:00.000+08:00

unexpected things happen.......it really drove me crazy!!!!

although u will think tat i'm so naive or childish but i don care.......wat i care is bout u only!!

i can't imagine.......felt so disappointed

but really nothing i can do since u insist tat it wasn't a big matter or so big deal

but to me it was!!!!

is my own principles................................................

wat i can say is just take care...

although i know u r stress but u can express yr it by other way but not by this way

anyway wat i can tell is i don like......

maybe u will think tat watever but i really care bout u only...

don make me worry always!!

no matter wat happen u can call me, maybe i don really understand yr situition but at least u won feel so lonely......

tat's wat i can say...............

take care,

dear.

止痛藥。。。。

2007-01-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

止痛藥 ﹐

我現在很需要止痛藥 !!!

很痛 ﹐

真的很痛。。。。。。。

memorable.........

2007-01-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

wat u left is just some memories,

wat u took is................................

doesn't matter!!!!

a quite memorable time!!!!

i enjoyed it but i din appreciated it

i keep it to myself............

keep it till the end!!!

keep it in the deepest of my heart

tat's wat i can do............

tat's wat i wan to do

nothing really i can do

nothing i hv the right to do so......

i always like to solve the problem by this way

that's just really my style....

i don need a result

but just the process.....................

really guilty.........because i care!!!

2006-12-21T01:01:00.002+08:00

is all my fault...............

i feel guilty bout this..........i don really mean to do so!!!

at first i just kidding............i dono how n wat should i do!!!!

sorry........................not just because i feel guilty but i also i really treat u as my friend!!!

i really care bout u.............if not i don think i will bother bout u..........i won even ask u y u angry bout me!!!

i will just keep silent

is just because i care that's y i feel guilty............................

anyway just to say

I'M SORRY

2006-12-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

+
penguin
+

SaMGuiN
this photo was edited by my sis.........

my dummy sis!!!!!

i miss them much...........

i really look like a pig

doesn't matter.............

new hairstyle......but look ugly.....

2006-11-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

wat the Fxxx.......
my new hairstyle......
but don't look nice.......as u know piggy+hippo+rino=ugly
then this was the result...
aih
wat to do???
since i'm not pretty, not slim, not cute.....
watever.....

Fatty addicted to ROcky = piggySam

2006-11-19T01:46:00.000+08:00

unexpected!!!

today just go to shop 4 my snack which i need to bring it back kl........coz kl's things r damn EX + NOT DELICIOUS.............

since then i always bought the ROCKy to eat!!!

haha

fatty addicted to ROCKY.........

as the result= become more piggy

piggysam............is my new name!!!!

haha

n yet i hv bought the whole box of rocky to bring it back to kl!!!

terrible right???

i think this box i can finish it within a month!!!!!

oh my god!!!

u will think i'm crazy right???

but don 4get, pig eats alot.................as my sis say, i'm a pig, a hippo, a dino

haha........so can u imagine how do i look like n wat the size of me

besides i hv bought lots of snack.......show u!!!

u must be damn shock.........................................but nevermind

as long as i like it.........

sis,

i'm a hippo!!

so????

haha

hopeless

2006-11-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

oh my god!!! is damn sad to hear that my friend will further her study in aus.......because we will be separate again!!! aih...............sad but also need to say congrats to her since she hv a chance to go there to EXPOSURE........haha tat's wat she say to me!!!!

but i don agree wif her.........if u got money,go overseas to study is exposure but if yr parents cannot afford wat u did is just materialistic.......tat's my opinion!!!!
the world is realistic 1..........no matter how good yr result is or how active u r they will just judge u by the cert tat u hv owned n which college or uni r u come from.......tat's y nowadays cert is everything.................n yet we can say our life is just about how to get the certificate that will recognise by the whole world.......y must we be so suffer 4 those stuff!!!!
bull shit......really can't stand it la!!!!
just because of the ranking in the world, two uni provide the same course n the same quality but the tuition fees is 10k difference.......can u imagine how big amount is it????
y???
unfair!!! just because of the ranking we need to pay more 10k 4 the education per year!!!
y can't we just fix the price or standard the price.....
someone told me be4 tat poor ppl can't afford to study medicine although they really wish to.....because they can't afford the tuition fees..........
maybe u will argue tat u can get scholarship!!! but do u know that is there many scholarship provided???
nop.......is just a few amount only.................................
hopeless.........without money we can do nothing!!!
poor ppl remain to become poor, rich ppl getting richer n richer.....
tat's wat the world going on~~~~
fed up with tat............
money is everything...................without money u r nothing..........................

鬼域

2006-10-29T01:35:00.000+08:00

故事里所說的是一個被遺忘和遺棄的空間
所反映着社會的各種現象
被遺棄的玩具 ﹐
被遺棄的建築物 ﹐
被遺棄的嬰兒 ﹐
以及被遺忘的先人。。。。
這都是現在社會所存在的事實
有沒有回想起小時候所丟掉的玩具 ??
或有沒有想起被剝奪了生存權力的嬰兒呢 ??
有沒有想起自己到底有多久沒去拜祭先人 ??
也許 ﹐
都忘了。。。。
然而這一切都是不可被磨滅的事實 !!!!!

Funny T-shirt

2006-10-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today,
hanging around the complex nearby my house
saw something funny!!!
a T-shirt ,
a logo T

written:

"GOD,
PLEASE HELP ME,
IF U CAN'T MAKE ME SKINNIER,
THEN MAKE MY FRIENDS FATTER"

is this funny???
i think so.....
full of creativity.....
i like it